When to Fold

It’s so hard to find
Words I need to say
I find it hard to believe
They will come to me one day
Spending so much time
Writing so many words
Still they don’t get better
And neither does my state
No neither does my state
I’ve been waiting for so long
I’ve paid my debts to you
Spending so much time
Devoting it all to you
Think I know myself
Think I know my ghouls
Think I’m true to myself
Just never learned when to fold

Time 5m34s
Tempo xxx bpm
Words Mårten Kellerman
Music Mårten Kellerman
Production Produced, recorded and mixed by Statemachine and Fred Caelou at Jennifer’s and FBI Studios, Stockholm. Additional keyboards, guitars and programming […]
When to Fold2018-12-03T19:23:24+00:00

Emo

Hurt me while I’m lying down
With frozen lips on frozen ground
Apart from pain it’s all quite nice
Apart from pain I’m almost fine
You have just abandoned me
Still it doesn’t get to me
You have just abandoned me
Left me to my fantasies
My mind keeps triggering
Flashing and failing
Pictures of you
And voices wailing

Hurt me when defences is low
When parasites have come to rule
Besides I never wanted life
Or fucking smoke like hope or love
You have just abandoned me
Still it doesn’t get to me
You have just abandoned me
Left me to my fantasies
My mind keeps triggering
Flashing and failing
Pictures of you
And voices wailing
And I don’t know why, it just […]

Emo2018-12-03T19:23:24+00:00

I’m Love

I have a cottage tucked inside
A well kept secret deep in me
It hides a heart-shaped pool within
And I invite you for a nocturnal swim in me
I’m love, I’m love, I’m love today
And you should step into me
I’m love, I’m love, I’m love today
You’re free to swim inside me
I’m love, I’m love, I’m love today
And you should feed upon me
I’m love, I’m love, I’m love today

Just when I thought I’d had enough
Just when I thought I’d given up
I find the masochist in me
Sublet my heart and put a vacancy sign on me
I’m love, I’m love, I’m love today
And you should step […]

I’m Love2023-06-07T16:08:19+00:00

Stranger Still

Taking a ride in a fabulous world
Where the sun shines at night and no one gets old
Focusing on a pinewood in blue
Where there is a house in rubber and glass
Walk through the door, have a look at the floor
There are thousands of stars spinning about
Taking the stairs to a room filled with dust
There are things everywhere and a moving rocking chair
And a man

Stranger still
Your need to disagree
Stranger still
Your inability
Stranger still
This lack of faith I see
Stranger still
Your lack of faith in me

He’s holding a book in his shivering hands
Looking deeply into it in some kind of trance
There on the sheet a […]

Stranger Still2018-12-03T19:23:24+00:00

The Last Legal Drug

Think I think too much
Worry way too much
Always over-analyzing
Too much on my mind
Too one-of-a-kind
Wish it wasn’t quite so tiring
I always aim to please but
The harder I try
The harder I fail
Enjoying the last legal drug
In hope of a new sensation
Enjoying the last legal drug
In an attempt to sink the nation

I find pleasure in
The most trivial sins
Little things of no importance
So high when I’m filled
So down when I’m billed
In desperate need of a golden mean
Think I think too much
Worry way too much
Always over-analyzing
Too much on my mind
Too one-of-a-kind
Wish it wasn’t quite so tiring
I always aim to please but
The harder I try
The harder […]

The Last Legal Drug2018-12-03T19:23:25+00:00

I Don’t Deserve the Pleasure

If I have faded over time
If I’ve receded over the years
It’s all for the best
Wouldn’t want to stay the same
Wouldn’t want what would remain
But it hurts all the same
Yet I won’t allow myself to cry
I won’t allow myself to relieve me my pain
No I won’t allow myself to cry
I won’t allow myself to relieve me of my pain
I don’t deserve the pleasure

We all got ways to get on by
Except the ones who don’t
I may be one of those who does
But not by easing out

I’m not seventeen no more
Not so sure I ever was
I sacrified my past
Became a lesser entity
I exorcised […]

I Don’t Deserve the Pleasure2018-12-03T19:23:36+00:00

Less Than Perfect [album version]

I tried to treat her to a spotless soul
but found someone had painted it black
She laughed at my face and called me a fool
then quite casually threw it right back
A thousand punches a thousand rolls
would prove them bastards right
A million crippled dreams now crushed
and shattered left and right
It’s a less than perfect world
from what I’ve seen
It’s a less than perfect world
this worn down scene

I twist and I turn as I’m tumbling down
onto the fractured remains of my past
slamming onto the repulsive mess
that was me when I was less of a mess
A thousand punches a thousand rolls
would prove them bastards right
A […]

Less Than Perfect [album version]2018-12-03T19:23:36+00:00